New Directions (Glee pun intended)

I have gained 18 lbs since July. I finally weighed-in yesterday. Irritated does not begin to describe how I feel. That is a really large chunk of time. If I had taken that time to continue losing weight, calculated by the rate at which I was losing previous to it, I could have lost another 30-40 lbs in that time! Instead, I gained 18.

I know, I know... it could have been worse. And I take that to heart, seriously. I take some comfort in the fact that I have apparently learned SOMETHING from all my time at WW's now. At least I curbed my weight gain more than I would have previously.

So I am on track with PointsPlus and I have been tracking the last 2 days. Shawn and I attended a company Christmas party last night and I tracked everything I ate. We are headed out to go Christmas shopping in the next hour or so and I know we are eating out. So I have already tracked my meal at Cracker Barrel. My points are figured for the day and I am pleased.

It's amazing how taking control of my weight-loss issues makes me feel more in-control of the rest of my life. I think that it's a circular problem. When I am not managing my weight, it makes the rest of my life feel like it is spiraling out of control as well. But I often stop managing my weight because  other things in my life are spiraling out of control. I think this is the center problem.

I am learning more and more that I am not capable of keeping things from spinning out. I have to make God the center of my life and let HIM be in control. I am capable of change. But it will only be lasting change if I let God be the center of it.